It’s probably the death knell of a blog to discuss stuff such as one’s health, but hell that’s what’s on my mind these days so that’s what I’m gonna talk about.
Suffice to say I had not been taking very good care of myself for the past few months, the highlight and reason of which is my addiction to caffeine. Well about a week ago today, I decided to do something about that, and quit this evil substance entirely after an approximate 3 to 4 cup a day habit.
First I’d like to put a good word in about quitting cold turkey. I figure this really is the best method if not the only effective method there is, to my mind. Over the years I’d been addicted to smoking and – of all things – working out, and I call it addiction because it had reached unhealthy levels, as all such activity done in excess turns out. Quitting, or rather, just absolutely quitting cold turkey, is really the best because you really can’t negotiate against addiction. And that is essentially what ‘quitting in moderation’ or merely ‘slowing down’ means. It’s like trying to negotiate against an enemy who knows you better than you do. It (addiction. And I’m speaking metaphorically here of course), will say yeah yeah sure sure we’ll slow down the next time, and then turn around and snigger at your naivete. It just won’t go away until you make an absolute decision to just give it up, and you can give it up only by just giving it up right there and then.
At any rate, now I’ll put in a bad word about caffeine, which from wikipedia is described as ‘the world’s most widely consumed psychoactive substance, but unlike most other psychoactive substances, it is legal and unregulated in nearly all jurisdictions.‘, which to my mind, is like saying Starbucks is a drug pusher, but it’s ok.
I don’t think I’ll get any flak by saying that because, hell that’s the truth right? All around us there are addictions tempting us. Painkillers, booze, cigs, a sedentary lifestyle, excess in food, material excess, obsessive shopping, etc. You just have to be adult about the fact that these things exist, and that being human, these will get to you if you’re not careful and it can happen to the best of us. So wise up and stick to what’s good for you.
Anyway, I’m feeling a bit better now, after having gone through a hell of a time withdrawing. Basically what happens is some chemical in your body which was less than normal during excess caffeine intake suddenly makes a comeback and you get these intense headaches in return. Paralyzing is the word I’d use to describe them, making me dim my eyes and get blurry eyesight from time to time. I guess I kinda expected it, and I feel much better now after loads of sleep and playing ball the other day. The resulting improvement has been pretty good. I feel.. normal – which is an incredible improvement after weeks of irritability, lack of focus, and overeating as a way of compensating for the lack of sleep and overall dullness I felt when I was taking too much of the stuff.
Funny how at this point I can look at it fairly clearly, but 2 weeks ago you’d not have me admitting any of those symptoms if you held a gun to my head for fear I’d have to face the truth that I was addicted. And we’re just talking of coffee here for Christ’s sake. This isn’t even metamphetamine or grass.
Ok I’m getting all gloomy here. I don’t really wanna go there, after knowing a few good friends go down that path. Maybe in the future, probably when I try to write a part two of ‘my story’, which involves my relationships with two or three influential people. For now, it’s Sunday, it looks like its gonna stay dry for most of it, which means basketball later this afternoon. I’ll do some work now and early PM, take a nap and play ball later, which sounds like a plan. A good plan that is, considering it doesn’t involve caffeine.