Tayo’y magsikap upang makamtan natin ang kasaganaan

I’m not really sure why I chose the above to be my title (the 2nd stanza to Ang Pasko Ay Sumapit in case that sounds familiar). I guess LSS has something to do with, other than being catchy as well.

Maybe in trying to make sense of how things have been going for me, I’m fairly at a loss for inspiration, hence I search for it even in Christmas Carols. For whatever reason, I think I chose above since it has something to do with the future. As of now, the future is the only thing I’m holding on to that holds some promise.

Yesterday I finally caught up with the mechanic who’s supposed to be doing work on my car. He hasn’t done much in the 1.5 months it’s been with him, and I blew my top. Honestly, I’m not in a hurry at all, what with gas prices and traffic the way it is, I really don’t consider commuting a bad thing. However he never gave a report throughout the car’s stay at his garage, and I was beginning to get suspicious. In the end, he had no good answer to why it’s taking so long, and I’ve confirmed he’s just a lazy bum.

I had lunch at my sister’s office after that, and a security guard called my attention at not wearing the guest ID while walking around their building. That by itself was ok, but he was rude, saying “babawiin ko yang id mo para palabasin ka dito sige.”. I was turning around when I heard him, then turned around again to tell him to repeat what he just said. When he did, he whispered it as if realizing his mistake. I told him I understood, but to speak in a more respectful tone the next time. He turned his back at me. I wish I got his name.

Finally that evening, I received an email from my client that my check would be further delayed another two weeks. Not only that, it might not even be made out correctly, inspite of instructions I wrote on my invoice, and requests on my part that they vouch for me.

These on top of a myriad little things, like forgetting my ATM pin, being too busy to collect from another client in time before she had to leave for her vacation (leaving me broke even further), as a consequence not being able to buy my nieces and nephews cooler gifts (thank God for the AGJA giveaways which were right on the money for my MMORPG crazy nephew), not getting J a better gift, having to postpone our dinner, having to dip into my savings as a last resort, and just feeling like an overall loser.

Honestly, I’ve taken much worse. But the sinking feeling I have right now isn’t that of anger or annoyance, it’s just frustration at my seeming bad luck. For bad luck it surely is. I couldn’t have avoided these if I tried.

As a result I feel like locking up somewhere and waiting for whatever apparent dark cloud there is to finish doing its damage. In the meantime, I’ll just work and work, trusting in the knowledge that the worst will pass sooner or later.

Then just an hour ago, someone texted me that Green Day isn’t British like I said in my article that came out today, it’s American. Ok, sorry for the mistake. I checked it online just now, and I can hardly recognize it after it’s been edited so much. I’m not gonna link it as I can’t really call that my work anymore.

Sheeesh. I’ll try to finish my forecast article asap, then try to play ball later. I hope there’s a game. I need it.